The poem above is very special to me because sometimes I feel like no matter how good my intentions are, it’s not enough. If I try to do something to help someone, they may think I’m doing it with ulterior motives. So at some point I really started wondering, “what’s the point?” Why waste energy trying to help people if they are just going to take it the wrong way? Why bend over backwards and try to consider others if they will still think I’m trying to do them had? If I try to be nice people think I’m being sarcastic. If I lash out in frustration, people feel like I’m “so mean.”
Somewhere along the line, I decided that honestly the only thing I can control is MY motives and MY attitude. I can’t control how people take things. I can’t control that people may assume because I’m happy that I think my life is perfect. Or that I’m bragging because I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished. That’s not true. I’ve worked hard, I’ve accomplished things. But, never once have I thought I was better or more than anyone else. Let me be clear, ANYONE can achieve their goals. Any person with the drive to do well can do well. But, of course their are obstacles and sacrifices. I have worked hard and when something good happens I AM proud of myself because I KNOW what I had to go through to get it. But no worries, I’m still humble. I know I’m nothing without God and every day I thank Him for where he’s brought me (and what he’s taught me)!
But at the end of it all, I can’t spend my life trying to validate my existence and make people feel comfortable. All I can do is set out with good intentions and pray that God blocks the people who mean me harm and opens doors for the people who are able to see the good in life.
|Random picture with wild hair lol I think Homecoming! 🙂|
|Interviewing… Tired but smiling anyway 🙂|
Sadly, I had to learn the hard way that very one who smiles at you isn’t happy for you. But I guess the secret is, you learn from it and move on. You never know how people “really” feel and even if you know, you can’t control it… so why waste your energy? Most people who know me know that I do my best to always find the bright side.
That’s not an accident. My choice to be positive doesn’t make me naive. I intentionally look for the bright side because life is way to short to be anything but happy. I refuse to spend my time focusing on negative things. That’s why I very rarely think or talk about the so-called “haters.” I mean, really, the energy you spend trying to push someone down or keep them down could be spend making yourself better!!
When I think people are doing better than me or have something I want, I use that as motivation to strive to do better. We all have something to work on. Let’s spend our time working to be better and lifting each other up. Not, trying to pull each other down like Crabs in a Bucket.
But, back to the poem. I’ve decided to be happy and successful regardless of how people perceive me. I won’t hold my head down in shame and I’ve never been cocky. Never wanted to make people feel inferior. But you know what, I can’t stifle my growth or pretend to be something I’m not to make others feel comfortable. I’m a happy person. I love to smile and laugh.
Deal with it. 🙂 Or better yet, don’t. Misery loves company and I guess I’d rather be alone.
Keep Pushing. It will be worth it. Like the poem says,… It’s not between you and them. This is between you and God. Do good, and keep doing good,
You will succeed.
Enjoy the pictures!
Blurry fall picture on the Run
Approaching the Art Museum… I love pretty runs!
Me after feeling running in Philly…
My favorite boo…
Hotel in Saint Louis